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“Say yes and you'll figure it out afterwards.” ― Tina Fey
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Most of my life has involved me moving forward only when I felt I was adequately prepared. I chose the safe path and moved slowly. I've been successful, but I haven't been really bold. There have been so many things I desired to do, but I just never did them because I was too scared to start them. I missed opportunities, but I accept that back then, I didn't have the right mindset yet. The past 3 years of my life have been about become bolder and that journey started with learning to love myself. I do love myself now, but I'm still shying away from things. So, when @k.vick asked me with only a day's notice to be her base for a body painting acro photoshoot, I said yes. Despite not knowing the artist or what we were going to do at the shoot, I agreed to it anyways. The perfectionist in me would have wanted to prepare. He certainly would have criticized me as we fell out of things trying to calibrate since we hadn't played together in months. But I chose to silence him and it allowed me to have a blast playing while in body paint. As I laid on the mats in a puddle of paint and sweat, it hit me that this is how much fun saying yes and figuring it out afterwards is. And I realized I wanted more.
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What have you been too afraid to start doing? What's the worst that could happen if you started them and failed? I'm not saying it would be easy, but what if the next time you were afraid to start, you started anyways? What if you set aside your fear, opened your heart, and surrendered to the universe? Being bold is about saying yes and moving forward without having all the answers yet. Will you seek boldness with me?
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Photo: @whoisbossk
Body painting by: @tribalifeart

“Say yes and you'll figure it out afterwards.” ― Tina Fey
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Most of my life has involved me moving forward only when I felt I was adequately prepared. I chose the safe path and moved slowly. I've been successful, but I haven't been really bold. There have been so many things I desired to do, but I just never did them because I was too scared to start them. I missed opportunities, but I accept that back then, I didn't have the right mindset yet. The past 3 years of my life have been about become bolder and that journey started with learning to love myself. I do love myself now, but I'm still shying away from things. So, when @k.vick asked me with only a day's notice to be her base for a body painting acro photoshoot, I said yes. Despite not knowing the artist or what we were going to do at the shoot, I agreed to it anyways. The perfectionist in me would have wanted to prepare. He certainly would have criticized me as we fell out of things trying to calibrate since we hadn't played together in months. But I chose to silence him and it allowed me to have a blast playing while in body paint. As I laid on the mats in a puddle of paint and sweat, it hit me that this is how much fun saying yes and figuring it out afterwards is. And I realized I wanted more.
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What have you been too afraid to start doing? What's the worst that could happen if you started them and failed? I'm not saying it would be easy, but what if the next time you were afraid to start, you started anyways? What if you set aside your fear, opened your heart, and surrendered to the universe? Being bold is about saying yes and moving forward without having all the answers yet. Will you seek boldness with me?
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Photo: @whoisbossk
Body painting by: @tribalifeart
132 11 14 January, 2019

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"I'm still scared. And no matter what happens tonight, when I leave, I don't want to be scared anymore."
-- Dre Parker in the new Karate Kid movie
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This year I'm resolving to live more of a life of passion and drive. Why is this my new year's resolution? I have to admit that I've been scared of a lot of things for a very long time and I couldn't admit it until now. I just made excuses as to why I was shying away from opportunities. I do acknowledge that I have conquered a lot of fears especially in these past few years. As cheesy at it sounds though, I still feel like I'm Dre Parker at the end of the new Karate Kid movie. I've accomplished so much and I know I've proven myself to be a formidable human being, but I have to soldier on, because I'm still scared.
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Ayurveda tells us that we are composed of a mix of three doshas which determine our personalities and body constitutions. Doshas are the manifestations of energy from the different elements that make up living beings. Keeping them in balance is the key to living a healthy life. One of the doshas is Kapha, which is one that manifests greatly in me. The Kapha dosha is associated with strength, nurture, support, calm, patience, and stability. My Kapha has kept me healthy and relatively stress free, but it's also kept me sluggish and resistant to change. My greatest fear is that I'll either spend my life too passive, going through the motions, or I'll put myself out there and even after all my hard work of letting go of my attachment of what others think, I'll embarrass myself and fall into oblivion.
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So, here I am with another human being's head literally in my hands, because I was inspired and scared by a cool post by @acroyogininjawitch. @thenextsamus and I had no idea whether this was going to work. Even with @acro_climber keeping us safe and filming us, it took a lot of mental effort to try this crazy pose and we nailed it. Swipe to see all our attempts.
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If you're scared like me, I hope you'll join me in having a similar resolution. Reconnect with love, trust the universe has your back, and face down those fears, one step at a time.

"I'm still scared. And no matter what happens tonight, when I leave, I don't want to be scared anymore."
-- Dre Parker in the new Karate Kid movie
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This year I'm resolving to live more of a life of passion and drive. Why is this my new year's resolution? I have to admit that I've been scared of a lot of things for a very long time and I couldn't admit it until now. I just made excuses as to why I was shying away from opportunities. I do acknowledge that I have conquered a lot of fears especially in these past few years. As cheesy at it sounds though, I still feel like I'm Dre Parker at the end of the new Karate Kid movie. I've accomplished so much and I know I've proven myself to be a formidable human being, but I have to soldier on, because I'm still scared.
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Ayurveda tells us that we are composed of a mix of three doshas which determine our personalities and body constitutions. Doshas are the manifestations of energy from the different elements that make up living beings. Keeping them in balance is the key to living a healthy life. One of the doshas is Kapha, which is one that manifests greatly in me. The Kapha dosha is associated with strength, nurture, support, calm, patience, and stability. My Kapha has kept me healthy and relatively stress free, but it's also kept me sluggish and resistant to change. My greatest fear is that I'll either spend my life too passive, going through the motions, or I'll put myself out there and even after all my hard work of letting go of my attachment of what others think, I'll embarrass myself and fall into oblivion.
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So, here I am with another human being's head literally in my hands, because I was inspired and scared by a cool post by @acroyogininjawitch.  @thenextsamus and I had no idea whether this was going to work. Even with @acro_climber keeping us safe and filming us, it took a lot of mental effort to try this crazy pose and we nailed it. Swipe to see all our attempts.
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If you're scared like me, I hope you'll join me in having a similar resolution. Reconnect with love, trust the universe has your back, and face down those fears, one step at a time.
124 5 8 January, 2019

"The root cause of all judgment is the fear of not being good enough, not being worthy of love, and not being safe."
― Gabrielle Bernstein
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The quote above comes from the latest audible book that I've been listening to: #JudgementDetox by @gabbybernstein. Big thanks to @truenorthsurfyoga for the book recommendation. It's been really enlightening to take the time to see how often I judge others and myself. I've developed a habit of taking each judgement I make about others and finding what within myself is triggering the emotional response. It's crazy to see how much your judgement of another person has less to do with the person you're judging and more to do with something within yourself that you don't like. For example, I've judged others who seem to be too busy all the time harshly, because I was struggling with motivating myself to get more done as my personality leans towards taking my time more and taking fewer risks. By criticizing them as people who don't understand the stress they keep introducing into their lives, what I was really doing was feeling jealous of their successes and being angry at myself for being too scared or lazy to get more done. Even as I say that, I'm reminded of Gabby's words though: "the way out of judgement begins when you witness the judgement without more judgement." So, even as I identify the emotional triggers, I know I have to take an attitude of love to ensure I proceed on the right path.
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In this video, I'm basing one my favorite flyers, @yogi_mhc. He is a remarkable human being -- an amazing acroyogi, badass yoga teacher, phenomenal hand balancer, a wise physical therapist, and an energetic lover of life. He also happens to be a Filipino and gay. As Asian Americans, we find ourselves being judged by two different cultures simultaneously, which is why I am always amazed by those who can be unapologetically themselves. To do so, you have to make the choice to set aside judgement by you and others and connect with love instead. Michael is one of those people and I will always love being his friend because of that.
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So, the next time you judge or witness others judging, connect with love to begin the process of healing.

"The root cause of all judgment is the fear of not being good enough, not being worthy of love, and not being safe."
― Gabrielle Bernstein
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The quote above comes from the latest audible book that I've been listening to: #JudgementDetox by @gabbybernstein. Big thanks to @truenorthsurfyoga for the book recommendation. It's been really enlightening to take the time to see how often I judge others and myself. I've developed a habit of taking each judgement I make about others and finding what within myself is triggering the emotional response. It's crazy to see how much your judgement of another person has less to do with the person you're judging and more to do with something within yourself that you don't like. For example, I've judged others who seem to be too busy all the time harshly, because I was struggling with motivating myself to get more done as my personality leans towards taking my time more and taking fewer risks. By criticizing them as people who don't understand the stress they keep introducing into their lives, what I was really doing was feeling jealous of their successes and being angry at myself for being too scared or lazy to get more done. Even as I say that, I'm reminded of Gabby's words though: "the way out of judgement begins when you witness the judgement without more judgement." So, even as I identify the emotional triggers, I know I have to take an attitude of love to ensure I proceed on the right path.
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In this video, I'm basing one my favorite flyers, @yogi_mhc. He is a remarkable human being -- an amazing acroyogi, badass yoga teacher, phenomenal hand balancer, a wise physical therapist, and an energetic lover of life. He also happens to be a Filipino and gay. As Asian Americans, we find ourselves being judged by two different cultures simultaneously, which is why I am always amazed by those who can be unapologetically themselves. To do so, you have to make the choice to set aside judgement by you and others and connect with love instead. Michael is one of those people and I will always love being his friend because of that.
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So, the next time you judge or witness others judging, connect with love to begin the process of healing.
114 11 31 December, 2018

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"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” —Howard Thurman
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After almost two weeks of motivational audible book fueled fervor, I was able to begin to be more specific in defining my desires and plans for the future, stick to a daily strength conditioning and flexibility routine, keep up a regular meditation practice, and began the purge of things I don't need around the house and in my life. It's been great, but I'm exhausted now. Being that amped about making changes takes a lot of you. So, now it's time for a bit of self care to balance things out. .
@brendonburchard defines work-life balance as less of a quantitative practice measuring the work-life ratio and more of a qualitative practice weighing your happiness with progress. If you're working so hard to achieve your desired level of success, but you're not happy and able to enjoy yourself, you're out of balance. If you're always goofing off doing things that just give you momentary happiness, then you may have to buckle down and focus on your work. In either case, you also should stop believing the stories you tell yourself that keep you from achieving balance. .
Being naturally more even keeled, I'm often in danger of falling into stagnation and with it, depression. To make myself less inclined to fall into that trap, I've been seeking things to feel strongly about. I want to love fiercely. I want to be less in my head and more visceral when I experience things. So far, the one thing that places me there better than anything is acroyoga. I want to see if I can occasionally shed this super chill persona and become more alive. I’m hoping that it’ll at least be an adventure.

"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” —Howard Thurman
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After almost two weeks of motivational audible book fueled fervor, I was able to begin to be more specific in defining my desires and plans for the future, stick to a daily strength conditioning and flexibility routine, keep up a regular meditation practice, and began the purge of things I don't need around the house and in my life. It's been great, but I'm exhausted now. Being that amped about making changes takes a lot of you. So, now it's time for a bit of self care to balance things out. .
@brendonburchard defines work-life balance as less of a quantitative practice measuring the work-life ratio and more of a qualitative practice weighing your happiness with progress. If you're working so hard to achieve your desired level of success, but you're not happy and able to enjoy yourself, you're out of balance. If you're always goofing off doing things that just give you momentary happiness, then you may have to buckle down and focus on your work. In either case, you also should stop believing the stories you tell yourself that keep you from achieving balance. .
Being naturally more even keeled, I'm often in danger of falling into stagnation and with it, depression. To make myself less inclined to fall into that trap, I've been seeking things to feel strongly about. I want to love fiercely. I want to be less in my head and more visceral when I experience things. So far, the one thing that places me there better than anything is acroyoga. I want to see if I can occasionally shed this super chill persona and become more alive. I’m hoping that it’ll at least be an adventure.
117 1 21 December, 2018

"Be more intentional about who you want to become. Have vision beyond your current circumstances. Imagine your best future self, and start acting like that person today." ― Brendon Burchard
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This is a video of a washing machine that involves transitioning between 4 poses: #monk , #reversemonk , #star , and #foottohand . Like a lot of things I like working on, it's not so much pretty as it is awkward and technical. I'm drawn to these poses and movements, because life isn't always this flowy, easy process. You have to embrace the awkwardness and realize that moving forward into those often unsettling predicaments gives you the opportunities to grow and shine. And I'm fortunate that my badass flyer, @thenextsamus, shares that love.
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Recently, I started listening to "High Performance Habits: How Extraordinary People Become That Way" by @brendonburchard. At one point in the book, Brendon talks about how a friend of his who despite being very successful and admired by others, was still unhappy and felt as if she was just going through the motions. Hearing that example really struck a nerve. I feel like one of the side effects of growing up Asian American is that you can fall into this trap where you're obsessed with always "saving face". So, you have a great work ethic, but it's driven by fear of being seen as a failure more so than the pursuit of success. As a result, once you've hit that moderate success level, you can choose to linger in the safety of your current successes. And I feel like that's where I've been for a while. I was successful, but I wasn't happy. To escape this feeling of stagnation, be grateful for what you have but also look beyond your circumstances to determine your best future self. Strive to create this vision not from fear of being seen as a failure, but instead from the excitement to be challenged again. As I move forward in defining my future self, I'm honestly terrified, but I'm really excited too.

"Be more intentional about who you want to become. Have vision beyond your current circumstances. Imagine your best future self, and start acting like that person today." ― Brendon Burchard
.
This is a video of a washing machine that involves transitioning between 4 poses: #monk, #reversemonk, #star, and #foottohand. Like a lot of things I like working on, it's not so much pretty as it is awkward and technical. I'm drawn to these poses and movements, because life isn't always this flowy, easy process. You have to embrace the awkwardness and realize that moving forward into those often unsettling predicaments gives you the opportunities to grow and shine. And I'm fortunate that my badass flyer, @thenextsamus, shares that love.
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Recently, I started listening to "High Performance Habits: How Extraordinary People Become That Way" by @brendonburchard. At one point in the book, Brendon talks about how a friend of his who despite being very successful and admired by others, was still unhappy and felt as if she was just going through the motions. Hearing that example really struck a nerve. I feel like one of the side effects of growing up Asian American is that you can fall into this trap where you're obsessed with always "saving face". So, you have a great work ethic, but it's driven by fear of being seen as a failure more so than the pursuit of success. As a result, once you've hit that moderate success level, you can choose to linger in the safety of your current successes. And I feel like that's where I've been for a while. I was successful, but I wasn't happy. To escape this feeling of stagnation, be grateful for what you have but also look beyond your circumstances to determine your best future self. Strive to create this vision not from fear of being seen as a failure, but instead from the excitement to be challenged again. As I move forward in defining my future self, I'm honestly terrified, but I'm really excited too.
104 6 13 December, 2018

Getting into the Christmas spirit Alien chestburster style at the @dallasfarmersmarket after helping run another badass @theyogamarkets event. This time, we moved it indoors since it's so chilly out. I'm so glad to be part of an amazing yoga and acroyoga family that puts on events like this one to continue to grow a mindful community of yogi's here in the DFW area. Learn more about this monthly event where we do yoga at the Dallas Farmers Market at www.theyogamarkets.com.
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Photo by: @zenbitch_actual

Getting into the Christmas spirit Alien chestburster style at the @dallasfarmersmarket after helping run another badass @theyogamarkets event. This time, we moved it indoors since it's so chilly out. I'm so glad to be part of an amazing yoga and acroyoga family that puts on events like this one to continue to grow a mindful community of yogi's here in the DFW area. Learn more about this monthly event where we do yoga at the Dallas Farmers Market at www.theyogamarkets.com.
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Photo by: @zenbitch_actual
97 5 9 December, 2018

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"To truly say yes to the love of the Universe means you have to look at your resistance and give up a thought system that you mistakenly identified as safety, security, and the foundation of your life."
-- @gabbybernstein
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I love this video that we took at the #texasveggiefair this year. It was actually an iPhone live photo that caught @natalie.brooke saying "I feel like I'm your mom." and then patting @dang.good.massage on the head while I was basing both of them in facing thrones. And of course, we were all cracking up after that remark. I've spent too much of my life scared to take on new things when I should have been welcoming new experiences and laughing with amazing people like these two. Sometimes I have to really fight the introvert in me that wants to curl up into a little ball and hide from the world, remaining in the bubble of safety provided by the things I know I already feel confident and comfortable with. Growth starts with awkwardness and uncertainty, but it doesn't have to start with unpleasantness. Acroyoga taught me to remember to laugh and connect with others even as I fought to succeed at something. .
Starting this month, I'm focusing on taking on the tasks I've been afraid or uneasy pursuing and following Gabby's advice about opening my heart to allow the universe to guide me. I was recently chatting with @kjoylipson, who is a badass trailblazing super yogi, and she had talked about how listening to the universe had brought her so many new things that ultimately led her to leave corporate America to better places including where she's at now. Inspired by the books I've been listening to and awesome friends like KJoy, I've started a manifestation journal and I'm defining the things I want out of life and am daring myself to take steps forward even when I'm not entirely sure where I'm going. I'm hoping to do my best to set the stage for everything and then trust that #TheUniverseHasYourBack and then will guide me from there.

"To truly say yes to the love of the Universe means you have to look at your resistance and give up a thought system that you mistakenly identified as safety, security, and the foundation of your life."
-- @gabbybernstein
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I love this video that we took at the #texasveggiefair this year. It was actually an iPhone live photo that caught @natalie.brooke saying "I feel like I'm your mom." and then patting @dang.good.massage on the head while I was basing both of them in facing thrones. And of course, we were all cracking up after that remark. I've spent too much of my life scared to take on new things when I should have been welcoming new experiences and laughing with amazing people like these two. Sometimes I have to really fight the introvert in me that wants to curl up into a little ball and hide from the world, remaining in the bubble of safety provided by the things I know I already feel confident and comfortable with. Growth starts with awkwardness and uncertainty, but it doesn't have to start with unpleasantness. Acroyoga taught me to remember to laugh and connect with others even as I fought to succeed at something. .
Starting this month, I'm focusing on taking on the tasks I've been afraid or uneasy pursuing and following Gabby's advice about opening my heart to allow the universe to guide me. I was recently chatting with @kjoylipson, who is a badass trailblazing super yogi, and she had talked about how listening to the universe had brought her so many new things that ultimately led her to leave corporate America to better places including where she's at now. Inspired by the books I've been listening to and awesome friends like KJoy, I've started a manifestation journal and I'm defining the things I want out of life and am daring myself to take steps forward even when I'm not entirely sure where I'm going. I'm hoping to do my best to set the stage for everything and then trust that #TheUniverseHasYourBack and then will guide me from there.
128 11 3 December, 2018

Lately, I've been addicted to listening to #audible books. I fell in love with listening to inspirational books, because sometimes you just need to hear the right words to give you that kick in the butt to get you going in the right direction. One of the books that has resonated with me is #TheUniverseHasYourBack by @gabbybernstein. I love Gabby's voice and the messages she conveys. I've never met her, but listening to her is like having a good friend who knows exactly what stories to tell you to get you out of your funk. That and she's really into Kundalini yoga and mantras and I love chanting thanks to yoga teacher training.
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There are two bits of advice Gabby gives in this book that really have lit a fire underneath me as I work on manifesting new things in my life.
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The first has to do with evaluating the feelings you encounter and the actions you take. When examining them, you have to figure out whether they come from a place of fear and judgment or a place of love. Whenever something throws me off, I'm upset, and I want to take a rash action, I now pause and take a moment to think if I continue with the present state of mind, will I find myself rooted in fear or will I be immersed in the light of love? When my ego is telling me I'm not good enough so why bother trying... When I find myself focusing on what other people think... It's not easy, but I set aside the unsettling fire that burns in the pit of my stomach and breathe into love.
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The second bit of advice is to learn to trust the universe. As an acroyoga teacher, I've been passionate about helping people work out their trust muscles. Every move and every transition in acroyoga involves this intense experience where you have to trust your partners. Otherwise, it falls apart. So now, the challenge is to forge that same trust between myself and the universe. Instead of trying to control everything, if I trust the universe, then my eyes will be open when the universe gives me signs directing me to what I want, be it candy, ice cream, soda, basing a 15 second hand to hand, writing my own book, or someday finding the love my life. #TheUniverseIsMyBase

Lately, I've been addicted to listening to #audible books. I fell in love with listening to inspirational books, because sometimes you just need to hear the right words to give you that kick in the butt to get you going in the right direction. One of the books that has resonated with me is #TheUniverseHasYourBack by  @gabbybernstein. I love Gabby's voice and the messages she conveys. I've never met her, but listening to her is like having a good friend who knows exactly what stories to tell you to get you out of your funk. That and she's really into Kundalini yoga and mantras and I love chanting thanks to yoga teacher training.
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There are two bits of advice Gabby gives in this book that really have lit a fire underneath me as I work on manifesting new things in my life.
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The first has to do with evaluating the feelings you encounter and the actions you take. When examining them, you have to figure out whether they come from a place of fear and judgment or a place of love. Whenever something throws me off, I'm upset, and I want to take a rash action, I now pause and take a moment to think if I continue with the present state of mind, will I find myself rooted in fear or will I be immersed in the light of love? When my ego is telling me I'm not good enough so why bother trying... When I find myself focusing on what other people think... It's not easy, but I set aside the unsettling fire that burns in the pit of my stomach and breathe into love.
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The second bit of advice is to learn to trust the universe. As an acroyoga teacher, I've been passionate about helping people work out their trust muscles. Every move and every transition in acroyoga involves this intense experience where you have to trust your partners. Otherwise, it falls apart. So now, the challenge is to forge that same trust between myself and the universe. Instead of trying to control everything, if I trust the universe, then my eyes will be open when the universe gives me signs directing me to what I want, be it candy, ice cream, soda, basing a 15 second hand to hand, writing my own book, or someday finding the love my life. #TheUniverseIsMyBase
127 14 29 November, 2018

OK, Mark. You've made it to the family reunion. This is your chance to be the good Taiwanese American son and take some standard photos with your parents, aunts, and uncles. Wait, what are you doing back there? Ummm, did you just photo bomb the family elders group photo with a headstand? ::facepalm::
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I spent most of my life fulfilling the role of a good Taiwanese American son. I struggled to do what was expected of me. I strove to be intelligent, industrious, diligent, selfless, along with nice and respectful. I survived the typical tour of duty doing all the classic Asian stereotypical hobbies - piano, violin, tennis, math competitions, and obsessing over test scores and college applications. I became an engineer. I even spent over a decade practicing kung fu and tai chi, along with lion and dragon dance to stay connected to my Chinese heritage.
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And that entire time, what drove me was getting the approval of and impressing others. I hid my defects, handicapped myself to ensure I could make excuses when I failed, and in many cases, shied away from opportunities because the shame of not being perfect at things was hard to bear. It was exhausting maintaining my "face".
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It's taken a while to get here, but here I am... Unashamed, unapologetic, and for the first time, exploring who I am and who I actually want to be not for anyone else but me. Being Taiwanese American taught me to have a strong work ethic, but it was yoga and acroyoga that allowed me to shed burdens I was never meant to bear and to start to open my heart. I admit it. I'm a full grown adult with many years under my belt... and I'm terrified. But I'm also excited. I keep moving forward. I can't stop writing. And I continue my quest to discover how to truly love and be loved. If my journey resonates with you, please keep reading these posts for more nuggets of wisdom and don't hesitate to give me a shout out to let me know what little nuggets you're finding on your path.

OK, Mark. You've made it to the family reunion. This is your chance to be the good Taiwanese American son and take some standard photos with your parents, aunts, and uncles. Wait, what are you doing back there? Ummm, did you just photo bomb the family elders group photo with a headstand? ::facepalm::
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I spent most of my life fulfilling the role of a good Taiwanese American son. I struggled to do what was expected of me. I strove to be intelligent, industrious, diligent, selfless, along with nice and respectful. I survived the typical tour of duty doing all the classic Asian stereotypical hobbies - piano, violin, tennis, math competitions, and obsessing over test scores and college applications. I became an engineer. I even spent over a decade practicing kung fu and tai chi, along with lion and dragon dance to stay connected to my Chinese heritage.
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And that entire time, what drove me was getting the approval of and impressing others. I hid my defects, handicapped myself to ensure I could make excuses when I failed, and in many cases, shied away from opportunities because the shame of not being perfect at things was hard to bear. It was exhausting maintaining my "face".
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It's taken a while to get here, but here I am... Unashamed, unapologetic, and for the first time, exploring who I am and who I actually want to be not for anyone else but me. Being Taiwanese American taught me to have a strong work ethic, but it was yoga and acroyoga that allowed me to shed burdens I was never meant to bear and to start to open my heart. I admit it. I'm a full grown adult with many years under my belt... and I'm terrified. But I'm also excited. I keep moving forward. I can't stop writing. And I continue my quest to discover how to truly love and be loved. If my journey resonates with you, please keep reading these posts for more nuggets of wisdom and don't hesitate to give me a shout out to let me know what little nuggets you're finding on your path.
119 18 26 November, 2018

"Believe in your heart that you're meant to live a life full of passion, purpose, magic and miracles."
-- Roy T. Bennett
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The interesting thing about having a Pitta-Kapha personality like mine is that even though you're driven (Pitta), you're also ridiculously chill (Kapha). But the problem is that you can become too chill. As a teenager, I would get a horrible case of hives whenever I got stressed out. Thanks to meditation and Tai Chi (two amazing gifts my father gave me), I learned to manage that anxiety. Over time, I grew to temper my anxiety to the point I became one of the most agreeable and chill people on the face the planet. I was still really hard on myself, so I did give myself stress, but I became better at shutting off any stressful effects of external stimuli. I've even had my eye socket fractured and didn't panic at all when it happened. All of that was good, but I realized that in the process of suppressing the anxiety, I also was suppressing other emotions, including the positive ones.
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Fortunately, I found acroyoga. I'm not entirely sure if it's the endorphins, the adrenaline, the joy of the challenge, the amazing feeling of connecting with another person on a deeper level, or something else, but I get super excited and I'm even happier when I'm teaching it. And for once, the happiness has nothing to do with stroking my ego. Opening myself up to feeling intense positive emotions has allowed me to start enjoying life more. I had spent a lot of my life not having preferences so as not to ever rock the boat. I simply didn't let myself have any strong feelings towards anything.
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Giving yourself permission to feel intensely is one of the best gifts you can give yourself. It helps you discover who you really are. Love fiercely. Find your passion. I know it's scary. Everyday, I have to resist the urge to retreat back into the safety of the ball of agreeableness I've historically holed myself up in. It'll be worth it. Trust me.
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Like @yogi_mhc in this video, stand proud, embrace your passion, and dance like there's no tomorrow. (Mural by @spencerevans_art)

"Believe in your heart that you're meant to live a life full of passion, purpose, magic and miracles."
-- Roy T. Bennett
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The interesting thing about having a Pitta-Kapha personality like mine is that even though you're driven (Pitta), you're also ridiculously chill (Kapha). But the problem is that you can become too chill. As a teenager, I would get a horrible case of hives whenever I got stressed out. Thanks to meditation and Tai Chi (two amazing gifts my father gave me), I learned to manage that anxiety. Over time, I grew to temper my anxiety to the point I became one of the most agreeable and chill people on the face the planet. I was still really hard on myself, so I did give myself stress, but I became better at shutting off any stressful effects of external stimuli. I've even had my eye socket fractured and didn't panic at all when it happened. All of that was good, but I realized that in the process of suppressing the anxiety, I also was suppressing other emotions, including the positive ones.
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Fortunately, I found acroyoga. I'm not entirely sure if it's the endorphins, the adrenaline, the joy of the challenge, the amazing feeling of connecting with another person on a deeper level, or something else, but I get super excited and I'm even happier when I'm teaching it. And for once, the happiness has nothing to do with stroking my ego. Opening myself up to feeling intense positive emotions has allowed me to start enjoying life more. I had spent a lot of my life not having preferences so as not to ever rock the boat. I simply didn't let myself have any strong feelings towards anything.
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Giving yourself permission to feel intensely is one of the best gifts you can give yourself. It helps you discover who you really are. Love fiercely. Find your passion. I know it's scary. Everyday, I have to resist the urge to retreat back into the safety of the ball of agreeableness I've historically holed myself up in. It'll be worth it. Trust me.
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Like @yogi_mhc in this video, stand proud, embrace your passion, and dance like there's no tomorrow. (Mural by @spencerevans_art)
137 5 19 November, 2018

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind."
-- Dr. Seuss
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I always have a blast when I hang out with @jzkuhler and @hazel00eyes00. This was a while back when we did an acro jam at @thedallasarboretum and we were inspired to do a people stack when we saw the spitting frogs. We didn't care if the crowd thought we were crazy. We simply did our stacked squat, because it made us happy and the result was hilarious.
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Life is simply too short to spend it worrying about what others think of you. You have enough trouble figuring out how you truly feel about you. What makes you think you're going to be able to figure out what others are really thinking, much less find ways to change it?
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Those who are familiar with my posts might be asking, "Why is this one of the common threads in your posts?" To be honest, I'm also trying to convince myself of this, so I can break my own bad habits. The next time you catch yourself hesitating to do something you want to do because you think someone might not approve, pause, push that thought out of your mind, and do it anyways. Did something bad happen to you as a result? Did another person's disapproval taint your experience? Did it even really ultimately matter? Did the experience make you happy? More than likely, unless you're doing something obviously bad, you had nothing to worry about.
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Let your worry about what others think go. Act smartly, do the things you want to do, and live without regrets.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind."
-- Dr. Seuss
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I always have a blast when I hang out with @jzkuhler and @hazel00eyes00. This was a while back when we did an acro jam at @thedallasarboretum and we were inspired to do a people stack when we saw the spitting frogs. We didn't care if the crowd thought we were crazy. We simply did our stacked squat, because it made us happy and the result was hilarious.
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Life is simply too short to spend it worrying about what others think of you. You have enough trouble figuring out how you truly feel about you. What makes you think you're going to be able to figure out what others are really thinking, much less find ways to change it?
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Those who are familiar with my posts might be asking, "Why is this one of the common threads in your posts?" To be honest, I'm also trying to convince myself of this, so I can break my own bad habits. The next time you catch yourself hesitating to do something you want to do because you think someone might not approve, pause, push that thought out of your mind, and do it anyways. Did something bad happen to you as a result? Did another person's disapproval taint your experience? Did it even really ultimately matter? Did the experience make you happy? More than likely, unless you're doing something obviously bad, you had nothing to worry about.
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Let your worry about what others think go. Act smartly, do the things you want to do, and live without regrets.
117 7 16 November, 2018

"We must cultivate our heads. But nurture our hearts."
-- Lailah Gifty Akita
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So, to ensure @yogi_mhc can properly continue to cultivate that head, I made sure to keep it nice and stable in my hand in this pose. 😉
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I spend a lot of time in my head. Sometimes too much. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who feels that way. The changes that have occurred in my life over the past 4 years have really taught me to break out of my head a lot more. I grew up analyzing and thinking more than doing. I was always intent on being fully prepared before I took anything on, but if you wait until you have all the answers, often times you either miss out on the opportune time to do the thing or you simply never actually do what you prepared to do. In her book, "You Are a Badass", which I read earlier this year, @jensincero talks about allowing yourself to surrender some of your control and letting the universe guide you. If you're brave enough to take the first steps even though you're still not quite sure of where you're going, you'll find that the universe has a way of nudging you in the right direction, provided you've got your ears and eyes open. In Jen's words: "Surrendering is the free-falling backwards into the unknown and trusting that The Universe will catch you."
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So, I know there will be lots of things that scare the crap out of us, but as I finish off 2018, I hope you'll join me in planting some new seeds and seeing what The Universe will bring us. I've got some crazy ideas and I'm fighting off my Kapha imbalances to light a fire underneath me to get me motivated and passionate again. (Mural by @spencerevans_art)

"We must cultivate our heads. But nurture our hearts."
-- Lailah Gifty Akita
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So, to ensure @yogi_mhc can properly continue to cultivate that head, I made sure to keep it nice and stable in my hand in this pose. 😉
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I spend a lot of time in my head. Sometimes too much. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who feels that way. The changes that have occurred in my life over the past 4 years have really taught me to break out of my head a lot more. I grew up analyzing and thinking more than doing. I was always intent on being fully prepared before I took anything on, but if you wait until you have all the answers, often times you either miss out on the opportune time to do the thing or you simply never actually do what you prepared to do. In her book, "You Are a Badass", which I read earlier this year, @jensincero talks about allowing yourself to surrender some of your control and letting the universe guide you. If you're brave enough to take the first steps even though you're still not quite sure of where you're going, you'll find that the universe has a way of nudging you in the right direction, provided you've got your ears and eyes open. In Jen's words: "Surrendering is the free-falling backwards into the unknown and trusting that The Universe will catch you."
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So, I know there will be lots of things that scare the crap out of us, but as I finish off 2018, I hope you'll join me in planting some new seeds and seeing what The Universe will bring us. I've got some crazy ideas and I'm fighting off my Kapha imbalances to light a fire underneath me to get me motivated and passionate again. (Mural by @spencerevans_art)
97 7 18 hours ago