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- Hello to my followers, friends and family : )
My creative block is more than I imagined…… I have taken a leave of absence from social media to focus on the most difficult personal healing process, I could have imagined.
Diagnosed with Complex PTSD only a year ago, I am now experiencing an intensity of subconscious resistance to the psychological therapy or Onion Peeling process. No easy feat tearing down a well armoured, Inner Child and Psyche. Built to defend me against early childhood mental, emotional and sexual abusers, and the over whelming life long trauma around my #metoo struggles.
A second chakra blockage of epic proportions, I reel, as I am reluctant to let go of my defences ….. my ROAR ! , as my Badger Spirit, did a great job of protecting me. At times I had to fight hard, at times I fled …. more often I fought my way out of things. Even a Black bear attack, Badger came to my rescue.
Take good care, as you journey in life. Take those early childhood attacks on your wee psyche seriously, as I am finding out it is insidious, and now proven to get worse in adult onset. With many known diseases and disorders coming to fruition later in life, as well as , cognitive impairment from the stress of abuse. #protectthechildrenfromsexualabuse
My therapist has begun EMDR work : Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. What a ride.
Eight sessions. Four to break me open and poke around the bad memories . Stirring me up to trigger memories / responses, then four more to install more positive memories of myself .
Informing me, it gets worse before it gets better : / …… I journey on.
I suspect, my art will be evolving along with me.
BIG Wild Wounded Woman hugs to us all xo
#complexptsd #survivingchildabuse #metoo #metoomovement #bullies #shunning #reconstructingmypsyche #woundedwarriors #creativeblock #compassion #posttraumaticstressdisorder #peaceandlovetothechildren #survivor #healing
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- Soo I’m finally home yay! I had eaten a chunk of rubber which is now removed. I’ve been spending the last two days ramming Mum and dad with my cone, sleeping and constantly cuddling🖤
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